Arsip | Januari, 2012

Sayonara, my dear friend Rizkya Amalia…

23 Jan

Assalamualaikum,

Last night, I had a dream.. rarely dream. There, some of my friend called me, they said something that till now I can’t clearly remember it. At 4 am I wake up, I don’t know why.. but something is bothering me. After finished do many things, I tried to climb on my bed. About 8 am I wake.. as usual, I checked my phone n got frozen. Did I got a wrong view on my phone?? it made a nerves, a massage from my friend as in elementary HS said “Innalillahi wa’inna ilaihi rajiun, berita duka teman kita………. ” okey.. it’s getting serious, I thought it was a dream, I don’t know what’s inside me, a burn feel.. upset.. regret, whatever. At that moment my ayes still in normal, a minute moment I back to my sleep position, but…. I can’t.. turn right n left in the bed. Allright.. I have to make sure about it. I called one of my friend, it’s busy line, n called another, didn’t pick up, n another.. couldn’t reach it. Finally after some, one of them answered me, n the worst.. they confirm that bad news.

So pity I am.. She’s really gone.. even I can’t meet her yet, one of my dear friends.. she’s gone.. for sure….  That second I realized my teary eyes toke a role, it dominated my face. How come?? she’s just 17-18 yo, somehow her face floated in my mind. Also this time as my finger dancing on the keyboard.. I have these hot tears. Suddenly I miss her.. even I didn’t met her vo along time, still I have this urgent sadness.

Rizkya Amalia.. our dear friend.. sayonara….

you’re a cheerfull, kind n sweet friend, I wish you’ll b good there,

we will miss you…….

I won’t say good bye to you, cz I’m sure we’ll meet again in the next life,
see you dear.. 

::Don’t say good bye (CNBLUE)::

We LOVE you Rizkya Amalia

*please pray vo her shake there* thx

Wassalam.

My Encourage Songs

22 Jan blueoppa

Assalamualikum wr.wb

Here I am.. laying in my my comfort bed while facing a screen, lately my mood is really bipolar.. once I smile like a fool just to imagine my lovely city Banjarmasin that I really miss n other once I make a flat expression remember about a little thing-that really stupid but still stuck in my head-.

my comfort bed

I don’t know what’s wrong wid myself, I have a strange feeling whenever I re-think it. I don’t have any idea what’s it called. I think this is new vo me… ottokee~ One thing that I sure is I have to resolve it , n again another question came.. ‘HOW ??‘ -.- it’s frustated me. While I was in junior HS till senior HS a matters which usually disturb me are around friends, family, n subjects at school. This is a first time I experince wid these stupid thing-I named it ‘stupid’ cz it really annoyed-.

Truthfully till now I still don’t get d’solution, however…. just try to act normally about it.

Come to think.. perhaps it’s not important as long as I’m not into it-selfdelucion-. So…. as usual, back then when I had a problems.. whatever they were I always buried myself into music, playing along wid my guitar (I named it ‘taylor’ from my fav singer Taylor Swift ^^),  watching a video (CNBLUE concerts are d’best recomendation vo that time), or just listening myplaylist (also almost all d’song are CNBLUE‘s).

my way to recharge

Here… I wanna share my fav encourage songs, they are from CNBLUE (of course-I’m a BOICE, right??) :

  1. One Time
  2. In My Head
  3. Try Again, Smile Again
  4. Intro
  5. Man in Front of the Mirror

*Number 1 n 2 is d’high recomendation*

blueboys

:: In My Head’ LYRIC ::

In my head, I know you (2x)

The way we go and go

Not yet at all

It’s still far

Beyond the light

With my own hands

Catch my dream

Our unshakable thought

(I wanna) With the straight light

(I wanna) I wanna make someone laugh

(I wanna) Now we put each of our hearts on and release them

Here in my head

It’s beyond imagination

In my head, Seize the same future we envisioned

Oh in my head, It’s grand and nobody knows

In my head my head, We wanna touch the spark

Oh in my head, Bravely

We believe in our potential, In my head

It’s a wish that is painful but sweet

Oh in my head, We are always as we are

In my head my head, It’s a frail and bitter dream

In my head

The way we go and round

The shadows alongside each other are swaying

In the eyes, I feel here, Our unmistakable dream

(I wanna), The hearts with different colors

(I wanna), When they become one

(I wanna), All tears will be changed into sweats called hope

Here in my head, The brilliant lights

In my head, They encourage us to head for tomorrow

Oh in my head, Let my shouting voice resonate

In my head my head, Beyond the dazzle

In my head, At the moment that the wind flows

In my head, What will we feel?

Oh in my head, Let ourselves out barer

In my head my head, It’s un yielding hope

In my head

Here in my head, After the disastrous retribution

In my head, Go ahead for the same future we envisioned

Oh In my head, It’s grand and nobody knows

In my head my head, We wanna touch the spark

Oh in my head, Bravely

We believe in our potential

In my head, It’s a wish that is painful but sweet

Oh in my head, We are always as we are

In my head my head, It’s a frail and bitter dream

In my head, Let ourselves out bare

In my head my head, It’s un yielding hope

In my head, I know you

It’s a frail and bitter dream

In my head, I know you

It’s un yielding hope

In my head, What’s hot

Oh in my head, Bravely

We believe in our potential

In my head, It’s a wish that is painful but sweet

Oh in my head, We are always as we are

Allright.. there are my encoerage songs vo me ^.^ , wish it’ll help u too :DD

thx vo d’attention,

Wassalam wr.wb